Author Archives: Elisha Lehman

Sometimes, I get so caught up in my own cave/bubble that I forget how truly, truly blessed I am. I have to stop and remind myself that I have the most important things I could have. My parents, my siblings, my cousins, my son, my extended family, you get the picture. So many people areContinue reading “Page 12”

I am a terrible friend. I mean, I’m a great friend, I love hard, I would do anything for those that I love and call friends, but I am terrible at sustaining that relationship. I get so sucked into my own cave, that I can barely see out sometimes. I would rather be home thanContinue reading “Page 11”

This has been one of those weeks where I feel like I am chasing my tail.  It feels as if I am constantly behind.  I haven’t overslept, I haven’t been late to work, I’m just rushed, anxious, unable to feel at peace.  It has been like this for a few days.  I feel like every nerve I have is onContinue reading “Page 10”

    Vulnerability – the quality or state of being exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed, either physically or emotionally. Does anyone else feel physically ill at the thought of being vulnerable? For me, being vulnerable makes me feel like I am failing. I should already know things, right? Already be confident.Continue reading “Page 9”

I’ve been doing this for a week now, and I wonder if I’m even making a difference. Does anyone really read these? Are the experiences I’m writing about even matter? Am I just wasting my time? I had this idea to start this blog because I have been through some stuff. Some really, really hardContinue reading “Page 8”

Baseball season is here. The boy has been playing since he was 4. I have a love/hate relationship with it. I love it because watching him do what he loves brings me such joy. Seeing him interact with his friends, the comradery, the teamwork, it is such a joy to watch. It does my heartContinue reading “Page 7”

Why are people so rude? Why do they take their stuff and dump it on complete strangers? Why do you think it’s ok to think I’m being rude if you don’t like the answer that I gave you? When did all of this start to happen? It used to be occasionally, but now; it isContinue reading “Page 6”

Have you ever had a toxic relationship? Whether it be romantic or friendly? A relationship that every time you spoke to or saw that person, you always ended up feeling badly. I am an empath, super sensitive. I feel everything that other people are feeling, I also take on other people’s feelings. Your mood directlyContinue reading “Page 5”

Just heard a song that talked about a memory I don’t mess with. What an incredibly sweet song. I started thinking about memories that I have. Memories that I want to forget, memories that I’m afraid I’ll forget, and memories that are always there. Isn’t it funny how a smell or a song can bringContinue reading “Page 4”

As I lie on a blanket in the grass, looking up at the stars, my mind can’t help but wander. Thinking of life, of death, of the in-between. Somewhere between life and death I’ve gotten lost. I’ve been wandering in the in-between. Not going forward, not going backwards, just stuck. I find myself wondering ifContinue reading “Page 3”