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I’ve been doing this for a week now, and I wonder if I’m even making a difference. Does anyone really read these? Are the experiences I’m writing about even matter? Am I just wasting my time? I had this idea to start this blog because I have been through some stuff. Some really, really hard stuff and I was hoping by sharing my experiences, my ideas, my opinions, it might benefit someone else in their struggle. I know it’s only been a week by I am feeling discouraged. So that begs the question…… am I doing this to get attention or to actually help people? Can the answer be both? Why does it even matter? I enjoy writing. Most times, I start writing and the words just pour out of my like a faucet. I have no idea what I’m writing or what I’m saying until I’m done, and I re-read it, and sometimes I don’t even read it. It is good therapy to write. I can’t write everything out, sometimes it’s too painful, but I try to be as honest as absolutely possible. I wish I knew how to write music. I think songwriting would be such a huge outlet, but that would require knowing how to play an instrument and I do not know how to do that. I’ve also thought about a book. I am writing ideas down on that. Is it helpful or harmful when we put this stuff out there? Does it help people feel included? Like they are less alone somehow? I am craving feedback, maybe that will help me feel less alone. I have so much to say and not sure how to say any of it. Maybe that’s the conundrum that most of us face. That we have so much in our hearts and minds, yet we are scared to let it out. Scared of rejection, scared of embarrassment, scared of being shunned. Have we really become as progress and inclusive as we pretend to be? Everyone has a cause, but do any of us use our platforms? That’s all I have right now, just a bunch of questions with no feasible answers.